It's been a very long while since I've written anything in this journal. I almost forgot the password. It's also been a long time since I've had the desire to write anything. And yet, I finally do. I do have the desire again. I want to write stories... poems.... words. But, now that I have the desire, I wonder if I have the ability. I can't seem to see the words I want to use. Somehow, I have to try though. If I don't, I may lose whatever this need is. Even typing in this journal feels good. Stay tuned... I may have something to show for in a month or so.

It has been a very long while since I've written in this journal. I almost forgot about it. Not really. I just haven't felt like writing in general, and of course, that doesn't bode well for a journal specifically about my writing experiences and process (what experiences and processes).

I had wanted to do Nanowrimo again. Or rather try it again. I didn't really do much writing. Didn't finish it. Not much of a word count. Oh well. I am no longer worried about it. Maybe I am not cut out for writing, but I'll keep trying no matter how bad of a story teller and writer I am. I'll just be the bane of the word processor.

Don't ask me what this means, I just felt like writing it down: There are moments of perfect peace and harmony in your life where you can believe in the goodness of humanity... in some sort of benevolent higher being or power.... where the universe seems to sing out with a sound so pure and gracious that you can't help but smile. Pity that those moments come so rarely to me these days. But at least I still recognize them for what they are. Balance.

Word Count for the Day: 257 ("A Voice So Pure" [Total: 751 Words])

I am trying. Honest I am. I think I have a handle on this one. I know where I want it to go. I know most of the characters in my head. I know where it'll end up... well almost. I just wonder if I can tell the story well enough. It will definitely be one of the more longer stories that I've written. That doesn't mean much though, now does it ;). I only hope I can do it justice. Well enough so that the editing process can salvage it.

Any ways, signing off. Toodles.

Word Count for the Day: 122 ("And the Dish Ran Away With the Spoon..." [Total: 874 Words])

I haven't really written that many in one day. It's more like a progression of writing over several days. I did, however, finish editing "Pandora's Box" and submitted it to the contest. It ran about 2955 words. So now I am gonna try to write three stories in about two months for another writing contest (including revisions) in an attempt to break my neck and bust my brains all over the keyboard. It's ambitious... I know. But hey, considering that only a few nights ago I went through a massive attack of "I'm not fit to use pen and paper much less a keyboard and software," I think I am doing all right with such thoughts. The way I figure... if I finish only one of them I am still ahead, and the entry fee is nominal. Why not go for it. And also, no one will have fears that I'll win by some ironic twist of fate. See irony: one who doesn't care to be known winning a contest where their name is shown in a semi-known anthology for the winners.... did I mention that the submission is voluntary. Yeah... no one is forcing me into this madness. Go figure.

On a closing note... someone actually called me a good storyteller... without prompting. That's right! No bribery involved.

Gonna sign off now.... incidentally... I've been rereading these things and realized I should not be composing them in the wee hours of the mor.... well that's not gonna happen now is it. Toodles.

And yes... once again I write more in here than actually writing a story. I did write some poems though. Even posted them at my site. Still... it's a bit sad. Oh well.

Word Count for the Day: 752 ("And the Dish Ran Away With the Spoon..." [Total: 752 Words])

I keep starting things, but I don't seem to be finishing them. I've started yet another story... well two if you count "A Voice So Pure" from the other day... but I've not even finished the other two I've got going. Come to think of it, I don't even have most of the stories I have on file finished beyond a few thousand words. I am so bad at this sometimes it's not even funny. But at least the ideas are coming to me. I mean a year ago... heck a few months ago I couldn't have said that. In fact that was something that always scared me off from writing. What if I did manage to get something published by some heaven-sent publisher and I couldn't keep delivering. What if there weren't anymore ideas for me to write about... no more stories for me to tell. It seems ridiculous I know, but it's a real fear of mine. Lately though those feelings have been diminishing. Admittedly, I still have the same thoughts, but they aren't as pronounced. Good things I think.

Anyways, this story is about a couple taking a romantic stroll on a bridge. Just so happens that this bridge is under a dome covering a colony on the Lunar surface. Again, not sure where it'll lead, but I've got to keep trying.

Signing off...

Word Count for the Day: 294 ("A Sorta Fairytale" [Total: 2354 Words])
Editing Word Count: Before Edit: 2520; After Edit: 2725 ("Pandora's Box")

Well, it's been awhile, but not as long as before. I've written more in Fairytale, but not enough to matter with the word count until today. But, I've had good reason. Since I realized that Fairytale is gonna be longer than the max. word count of 4,000 allowed for the contest I was gonna enter it in, I decided to edit an older piece of mine called Pandora's Box. Definitely coming way under the 4,000 word limit, I really did enjoy reading it and writing it. I think it's a more complete story because of the editing. Or at least I hope so.

So, I have more of an idea where Fairytale will be going, and I have an idea where another story I want to write is gonna go. That one is going to be about music and what someone would do if they lost their talent. How far would a person go to gain their gift back. I think it'll be interesting.

C-ya for now.

Word Count for the Day: 434 ("A Sorta Fairytale" [Total: 2060 Words])

The 2000 mark has been breached and passed. Of course I am still not even into the main part of the story and the max. word count has to be under 4000. But that's what editing is for right? Let the words fall where they may. Clean up will take care of the rest.

Still not averaging 500 words a night. And the other night, I didn't even write enough to warrant a count. Just sorta looked at it really. But it's coming along. And I did end up writing a poem so that was progress of sorts. Got to get around to posting some new poems to the site soon. My public is getting restless... hahaha.

Well, gonna sign off now.

Word Count for the Day: 479 ("A Sorta Fairytale" [Total: 1626 Words])

This is indeed getting to be a regular thing. Almost 500 words in one day. Now I know that to some that really isn't that much, but to me it's a lot. The story is plodding along. It's still on the beginning. The adventure hasn't really started, but I am introducing the main characters of the story. Well the ones that happen to be in the reality part any ways. I've gotta establish some kind of empathy for these people. And I think the characters are really starting to develop. Of course this doesn't mean a thing. I've been known to start stories and not finish them *coughDoorwayscough*. But I wanna finish this one. Heck, I wanna finish all the stories I've ever started. If I actually did that, I'd have enough for some kind of anthology. Oh the dreams of the hapless. They are nice though.

Continually signing off on something or another... I should really read things before I sign them... :)

Word Count for the Day: 204 ("A Sorta Fairytale" [Total: 1147 Words])

Wow! Over 1,000 words. Only a bit over 200, but still good. The story is coming along well. Not sure how many people I'll let read it when it's done. If it's good enough, I'll submit it for the Writer's Digest Contest that ends around the beginning of May along with some poems. It'll be a good experience I think. Still thinking about some other stories as well. How to fix them. How to write them. May even think of submitting them when they get done. Who knows. I've done crazier things. Any ways, gone let the writing doodler rest and try again later on.

Signing off.

Word Count for the Day: 369 ("A Sorta Fairytale" [Total: 943 Words])

Wow... more writing done. Both on short story front and a bit on the poetry front, although I am convinced that all the poems I've written recently are drivel. I have been writing more and more quote-like prose though. Like someday these bits and pieces will end up spewing forth from some character yet formed in my psyche. Scary thoughts, eh.

Signing off for now.